The H-Word
Transmission

Transcript

This is a transmission on the topic of hate. Hate moves through us like a current.

What arrived first in this transmission was the word itself — and the sensation of a current moving through. In my mind it immediately connected to something I have observed many times: how quickly we can move from love to what we call hate. And what I felt in that current was not some opposite of love, but a grasping. A reaching for what was lost. Sadness wrapped in expectations that were not met, or an expectation that was never really there to begin with.

I had a teacher once who could not bring herself to say the word. She was teaching about the work of Masaru Emoto — the scientific experiments comparing the effect of saying "I love you" and the H-word to water. The crystalline structures that formed in response to love. The fractured, collapsed structures that formed in response to the other. She would always whisper it when she had to say it. And I noticed something begin to shift in me as I watched that.

I began removing it from my own vocabulary. As a noticing. I became aware that the word was carrying a contract I had never consciously agreed to. A weight, an intensity, a permanence that simply did not reflect the actual feeling that was present — which was usually something much more specific and much more available to work with.

When we use the H-word in conversation, we tend to be reaching for intensity — trying to give weight to a story, to make something land with force. But what actually happens, at a physiological level, is that it closes the heart. Even as I worked through this transmission, I noticed that I had moved from saying the word at the beginning to referring to it as "the H-word" by the end. My heart was telling me it did not want to speak it. That recognition — something withdrawing from a word — is how I know where my field stands, vibrationally. The body knows before the mind does.

I offer this as an observation. For those who feel called to it: notice what happens in your chest when you say the word. Notice how it sounds when someone says it around you. Notice what emotion it is actually standing in for, in the moments you reach for it.

It lives by example, this one. Not by instruction.